Post by wirklichkeit on Jun 27, 2012 14:33:00 GMT -5
Being new to the forum, I'm not certain that this is the appropriate place to post this request but I'm reaching out to anyone who might be able to help.
I'm a responsible 32 year old college educated male. I uphold a respectable white collar job and have no history of mental illness.
Less than a year ago my wife and I witnessed something extremely frightening which has continued to defy conventional interpretation. This event was especially disturbing to me because, in many respects, it resembled an experience I shared with my father in Pennsylvania nearly 19 years ago. The former instance was reported to MUFON and is, as I understand it, currently under investigation.
In both cases, the initial experience was considerably less terrifying than the associated effects and aftermath which have troubled me so badly that I have begun to suffer from a sleep disorder, pavor nocturnus, somnambulism, periodic feelings of intense fear, hyper-vigilance and an attendant chronic pain disorder. While I am receiving treatment for these symptoms under the blanket diagnosis of fibromyalgia (a chronic pain syndrome which comes and go in waves sometimes separated by periods of weeks or months), I have been unable to discuss their apparent cause for fear of ridicule.
The feelings of distress, emptiness, helplessness and physical pain I experience are often so oppressive that in some instances it takes everything I have to just stand up every day pretend that everything is alright.
Witnessing the source of my trauma with others has given me a modicum of strength to deal with my anxiety and to discuss its cause in a limited capacity. However, this circumstance has also exacerbated my current feelings of vulnerability and fear because I cannot simply dismiss said experiences as delusions or lengthy hallucinations.
I just need to talk with someone responsible and to explore and evaluate what occurred. Once I'm able to wrap my mind around the cause of my distress, I'll find a way to cope it and move on.
Right now I have no one to turn to and this is a terribly frightening thing to face alone. I hold out hope that perhaps I will be able to find someone who can and will help.
The prospect of simply making an appointment with a total stranger and saying that I experienced the impossible - even if two credible witnesses on two separate occasions were present and could attend the session - is still a frightening and embarrassing prospect. Just discussing the initial experiences would be hard enough, the secondary experiences which are the actual source of my discomfort would be almost totally impossible under such circumstances.
Please, if there is someone out there who can direct me to a licensed specialist who operates a legitimate practice, upholds the standards of his or her profession and who has worked with similar cases in the past I would be extremely grateful.
Thank you in advance for any assistance that might be offered.
I'm a responsible 32 year old college educated male. I uphold a respectable white collar job and have no history of mental illness.
Less than a year ago my wife and I witnessed something extremely frightening which has continued to defy conventional interpretation. This event was especially disturbing to me because, in many respects, it resembled an experience I shared with my father in Pennsylvania nearly 19 years ago. The former instance was reported to MUFON and is, as I understand it, currently under investigation.
In both cases, the initial experience was considerably less terrifying than the associated effects and aftermath which have troubled me so badly that I have begun to suffer from a sleep disorder, pavor nocturnus, somnambulism, periodic feelings of intense fear, hyper-vigilance and an attendant chronic pain disorder. While I am receiving treatment for these symptoms under the blanket diagnosis of fibromyalgia (a chronic pain syndrome which comes and go in waves sometimes separated by periods of weeks or months), I have been unable to discuss their apparent cause for fear of ridicule.
The feelings of distress, emptiness, helplessness and physical pain I experience are often so oppressive that in some instances it takes everything I have to just stand up every day pretend that everything is alright.
Witnessing the source of my trauma with others has given me a modicum of strength to deal with my anxiety and to discuss its cause in a limited capacity. However, this circumstance has also exacerbated my current feelings of vulnerability and fear because I cannot simply dismiss said experiences as delusions or lengthy hallucinations.
I just need to talk with someone responsible and to explore and evaluate what occurred. Once I'm able to wrap my mind around the cause of my distress, I'll find a way to cope it and move on.
Right now I have no one to turn to and this is a terribly frightening thing to face alone. I hold out hope that perhaps I will be able to find someone who can and will help.
The prospect of simply making an appointment with a total stranger and saying that I experienced the impossible - even if two credible witnesses on two separate occasions were present and could attend the session - is still a frightening and embarrassing prospect. Just discussing the initial experiences would be hard enough, the secondary experiences which are the actual source of my discomfort would be almost totally impossible under such circumstances.
Please, if there is someone out there who can direct me to a licensed specialist who operates a legitimate practice, upholds the standards of his or her profession and who has worked with similar cases in the past I would be extremely grateful.
Thank you in advance for any assistance that might be offered.